Thursday, May 5, 2011

Shovelling shit...again

Well, where do I start?
Start at the beginning and go until you reach the end, said the white rabbit to Alice...or some bizarre anthropomorphized critter.
So, crap just keeps on piling up and I just keep on shovelling it away but it gets a little freakin exhausting, ya know?

Dad died.
So the grief has given the Aspie teen full reign to smash the house, and us, to smithereens - yes, we did have a few intact walls and holes had been repaired but... no more.
We won't mention the extensive bruises or hanks of hair ripped from my skull or the love affair The Spouse and I are conducting with super strength pain relief tablets.
Oops, seems I did mention it...never mind, just move along, nothing to see folks, just another recurring train wreck.
*sigh*

We have no toilet door as he kicked a great hole in it which we replaced with a curtain which he has now ripped down while punching a massive hole in the plaster wall of the loo.
I can recommend this for BRACING fresh WINTER air, particularly in the smelliest room in the house after a male teen has perched on the throne for ever and a day but... it's just a tad drastic.
Try opening a window, way easier.

He managed to rip open the PADLOCKED shed door...yes, it was fully secured with BOLT and PADLOCK...but he merely wrenched it open without batting an eyelid and grabbed the steel hammers one of which he managed to throw through the (weakened from much smashing of aforementioned hammer) flywire on the security door and it smashed into the back of my hand.
Fortunately....as it would have hit me fair square in the chest otherwise.
Quietly thanking my poor, battered right hand for being in the way.

When he came into the house armed with the shovel all I could think,
"Well, he's really gonna make us dig our own holes before he buries us in the vegie patch...I could have sworn we had plenty of fertiliser without the need to do us in."
Yes, bizarre thoughts trot gaily through the space optimistically called my mind.
Mind?
What the heck is that, again?
I think I lost it somewhere around the 7th useless specialist we saw...

I snapped the head off a smart mouthed receptionist who told me I couldn't get in to see my lovely lady gp until next Monday.
Somehow I managed to refrain from telling her I would probably have done something drastic well before then and not to bother but when I asked if it was possible to get in to see ANY of the doctors I think she realised I wasn't asking just to hear the sound of my own voice...that I might actually have a genuine need to see someone-anyone-please-even-if-it's-the-freaking-witch-doctor-who-can't-speak-freaking-English-they-keep-out-the-back-in-case-of-emergencies.

You know, it's probably a good idea to go see a doctor when the valium doesn't make a dint.
When the meditation doesn't help, when you flinch and tense up each time your own child thumps into a room.
Cos he thumps mostly whenever he walks so it's hard to tell beforehand if he's tired, upset or about to unleash a total nuclear meltdown on humanity.
Us being the first line in defence of humanity...although, strangely, we're not on the ADF payroll.
Wonder who I speak to about that...?

Some doctors are horrified at the types and amount of medication he is on.
I'm simply horrified that the fucking things don't make any difference some days.
And, while I'm on a ranty roll, let me tell you I'm pretty fucking miffed some specialists think it's ok we get to 'manage' a disabled, brain damaged super-strong person in full psychotic flight 24/7 with NO FREAKING FUNDING WHATSOEVER yet some are aghast that parents can homeschool without 'proving' themselves on a weekly basis.
Seriously?
I mean....WTF, are you freaking SERIOUS!?
Let this kid loose in a temper in Afghanistan and he'll clean up the freakin Taliban bastards in no time.
But God freaking forbid he hasn't been made to sit down in a classroom to have 'real' schooling.

Um, yeah.
Thank fluck I got in to see my lovely lady gp.
Now, where did I put the shit shovel......

10 comments:

wonderfullywired said...

Oh Ro,
Even in the midst of a pretty darn sucky week, you still manage to make me smile with your humour.

Sending you massive hugs (though I know you need something stronger)
x

Madmother said...

Fuck - how do you do it? How do you keep that quirky humour underlying the deeply disturbing graphic words?

I have no words, I know how helpless and frustrated and downright terrified and out of control you must all be feeling right now. But I have no idea how to help nor advice. Geez Louise, what a fucking mess.

River said...

Jayne this is just awful. Do you have access to a dart gun and elephant/rhino/lion strength tranquillisers?
I guess he's the type who would chew right through a straitjacket in about 5 minutes....
It just isn't fair at all that you do all of this without any funding at all.

peskypixies said...

I wish I had some sage words of advice but I dont.
just some love and hugs.

Eccentricess said...

The strength thing is extremely scary.

Grief is incredibly hard to deal with and your family had enough to deal with before your Dad died.

Aaaaand, the outer walls are the important ones, anyway. ;-)

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Myst_72 said...

Gee Herry I'm pretty sure 'some biotin for hair growth' is absolutely the answer here.....

Jeez darl, I'm definitely pleased you got in to see your GP.
Pretty sure a 'real' school would be rolling in funding if he were attending and any of these things were going on...

♥ to you all.

I hope you received my text,

G
xx

Mad Cow said...

Glad you got to see A GP. One day at a time, I suppose, is all you can do. Sending mega-loads of cyber hugs & admiration...

Nikki aka Widdle Shamrock said...

My darling friend, with so much going on, I don't know how you haven't gone postal.