Another year down, only 40 bajillion to go

In looking back over 2010 I'm struck by a few things.
That a few in-law rellies, who previously laughed shrugged off Aspie teen's Autism and Aspergers were forced to confront it a little closer to home in their own beloved grandchildren.
But when they shared the diagnosis with me I unintentionally gave them the cold shoulder they'd given me.
Because I was/am exhausted.
I admire those who have been on this journey for years, decades, and still find the energy to help, educate, assist others who are new to this road we all walk.
But as I've been forced to rely on no one else but myself and the Spouse I've had to direct my energy towards my own son and this is where I'm at, tired and unable to summon up much more than sympathetic noises for the rellies.
They probably think I'm a rude cow but, meh, I cannot give them what I do not have.
I bought a monthly magazine which had a tea towel with the classic slogan "Keep calm and carry on".

 

It's pinned up on my kitchen wall as my new motto, a reminder to not get upset, to not react, to stay burbling under the surface and appear heavily sedated serene to all.
Now that we finally have assistance with Aspie teen I'm able to relax a little and not be hypervigilant because, at long last, someone is listening.
It is such a huge weight off my shoulders, I feel I can keep calm and carry on into the New Year!
Although....if I seem too sedated just nudge me with your foot, 'k?

As we launch ourselves towards 2011, I wish each and every one of you lovely people the very best that the future has to offer and as few bumps in the road towards your goals.

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